Goals

My goals and dreams in life have changed a lot as my life has changed. When I was little, I only wanted to be a princess. When I got a little bit older I wanted to be a supreme court judge. I went through dreams of being a nurse, a psychologist, a scientist, a model. Now I want to be in marketing, I want to work in New York for a short time, and then move back to my beloved Texas. I want to get married to a great guy, have children, devote my life to helping people, live on a small farm thats not too far from the city with my family. I want to cook food that I grew in my own garden, I want milk from my own cow, eggs straight from the chicken coop. I want a simple, but beautiful life. I want love and laughter.
I want so many wonderful things in my life. I want to run marathons (an incredible feat to go from not being able to run without getting sick, to being able to run that many miles). I want to see the world. I want to own my own clothing store, and make tons of beautiful designs. I want to have food storage, but gluten free. I want to teach others how to live healthy and full lives while have chronic illness. But as it is, I am still learning to manage my own illness, and learn to cook, and get through school (still working on getting accepted to the business program), and live every day. Just focusing on how best to get through each day and get the most good accomplished.

Each day is a new challenge to go through, and each day has wonderful rewards for making it through the rough patches. Today, I learned I need to avoid peanuts for awhile. Possibly years. Possibly my life. But, with the pain it caused, it also helped renew my resolve. I managed to make it through work despite the nausea. I did it. I accomplished my goal. I was rewarded with another project to work on :) I always love new projects. And I LOVE that I get to put all my computer skills I learned in class to a good use! It's amazing how useful all my classes are becoming now that I am getting into the real world. I'm suddenly very grateful for all those years of spanish, and other assorted classes that I really hadn't thought of as very useful up till this point. Much thanks to my mama for pushing me to take some good classes.

I give myself goals each day, and each week. I track my progress. Some goals are easier than others. Reading my scriptures everyday, for example, is one of my easier goals. I love reading scriptures, soaking in the truth and light that the pages contain. While working out every day, is nearly impossible for me now. Hard workouts just make my condition worse. I have to watch it, and just tone my legs. But I know, through hard work and determination, I will always make it to all of my goals.
This weeks goal is a study on faith. I have this book I asked to get for Christmas called lectures on faith. It contains the 7 lectures Joseph Smith gave on faith. I've been trying to read excerpts daily. They are excellent lectures.
My secondary goal is to learn more about my gluten free diet and how to add variety, and have fast and simple recipes to make when I'm at college. So far, I have made a mac n cheese bake that was just wonderful :) I think that after a little getting used to, I am truly going to love this diet. It will change my life into something new and unexpected, and better than I thought it would be.